Tuesday, January 10, 2012

When The Tears Fall, #1

A few years ago, following hours of preparation, I set my feet on African soil. This was a long awaited trip to meet my friends in a far away land. It was a time of traveling through the villages, cities, neighborhoods and building relationships. I traveled to my destinations by walking, small buses, taxi's and large buses. As I look back now I recall the daily tasks of; making sure I drank healthy water, safe food, dressing for the heat and listening to a language that was unfamiliar to me. In the middle of all of this my task was preaching, teaching, equipping and writing. God gave me his peace in the middle of what some would title chaos ,confusion and stress.

Just as my trip to Africa required surrender to his plan, each task that God calls me to on this journey of life requires surrender. From the outside looking in my life journey looks exciting, but what others do not see is that there is a trail of tears that is left behind. Even though God calls us to exciting things, life still happens on this journey. The death of my 6 year old nephew and the loss of my brother law dropped a deep weeping into my heart for a few years. Writing about the murder of a Grandfather and publicly sharing in a magazine and newspaper, forced me to stare the reality of the situation square in the face. Sharing in the midst of my preaching, teaching and writing, what the pain feels like from physical and verbal abuse, challenged my believe system again and again. Then following all of this beginning to live a life that has been titled from, "The Corporate World To Near Homelessness."

Presently I am revisiting my life journey to share it in a book and movie. Once again to many this sounds so exciting. Yet, for the story teller it is a painful ordeal. In order to write from the inside out for my readers, it means transparently sharing my journey. The deep dark secrets of a heart, the pain, the tears, the trials, the rejection, all a part of my life. Yet today, I am saying yes and amen to God and with a new found willingness to transparently share the journey.

Through it all I hang onto this promise;

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen! I Peter 5:10-11 New International Version 1984.


Lord, I pray for leaders who are reading this today. I ask for you to help them to turn to you and not away. Help them to stay on the path of serving you. You see each tear. You feel their pain. Remind them they are never alone. In the precious name of Jesus Christ, help us to walk with you.



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